When you ban a member, who is autistic, because others talked about it. You did not tell me what you did.
I had decided to lie to him to avoid hurting his feelings, I was inclined to allow him to remain in the faction as long as he did not irritate the other members. I was not obliged to inform you of any of my actions before carrying them out because first off, I am a leader of a faction, and secondly you are in no way my superior, but rather a mere equal.
A private ass chewing would not have brought the result that I wanted. you would took it as a buddy buddy, and not as a life lesson.
your major malfunction is seeing me as your subordinate, while I on the other hand viewed you as a colleague, a friend even. your attitude of treating me as a little kid whom needs you're teaching of so called "life lessons" is what displeased me to the point of sacrificing the community I built just to prove my worth.
I did not leave because of my mishandling of the situation, of which I had never denied, and have admitted that a better solution could have been thought of. But rather I left because your consistently look down upon me for my age, do not deny that from the moment I told you my actual age you had started taking me less seriously, you simply stopped respecting me as a leader, and saw me more as a child.
As a leader my responsibility is to keep to the group together, and to take any action when that bond is threatened, and although those actions I took might not always be the most sound, there are all with good intention. By undoing what I had done without first consulting me showed you did not have respect for my actions and authority, and by putting me on the spot and I will say "yelling at me like a mother does to a kid at the supermarket" was not only embarrassing to me but damaging to my perception of self worth.
This is a game, not a job. I spend on an average 3-5 hours getting online during the faction's peek hours to make sure everyone is happy, even on the most boring of nights I organised roams and random raids to keep the members interested in the game, trying to keep the game from becoming repetitive I had to constantly come up with new ideas for the members to have fun, which unfortunately came at the cost of our friends from the TE. You have no idea how much time and energy it takes to do this. This is what I had done which held the faction together even during the dullest of times.
You had no idea what I did for the faction, to you I was the "reckless kid who loved to start wars without doing preparation work" when infact you failed to see that with each conflict I created it was to achieve what I saw as the pinicale of importance in a starmade faction, activity and bonding between the members. That is what I had built the CR as, a tight group of friends.
You envisioned the CR as a meritocratic military which I had warned you in a PM before taking my leave, would not work in a community like this. I had taken the time to explain to you that Starmade is an indie game with a lack of activity, and that trying to build a competitive internal government and lifestyle would be impossible due to the huge lack of things to do in the game. I had warned you that plans had to be carried out with minimal prep work or else members would lose interest. You responded by telling me you were from the Marines and that you could lead better than I.
I can tell you, through out my life I have found myself constantly in leadership positions, not because I enjoy power, but because I enjoy people, It is my passion to lead, to keep people together, to do what I think is best for those who trust in me, and to go through thick and thin with those whom I consider to be my friends. A good example would be the battles aceface, matt, ghost and I fought against the various factions which was recorded and posted on aceface's channel, until now I rewatch those videos because hearing the joy in their voices alone fulfills me
It saddens me when I get PMs on steam from ex CR members informing me of the state you have landed my faction in ever since my leave, and I fell as if I had let them down.
Congratulations, you accuse me of disrespecting joefish for being autistic while you yourself look down upon others for simply being younger than you.
ps: keptick never had you ever partaken in anything which had to do with the faction besides assaulting that TE supply depot, hell you spent most of your time in you own little sub faction. you were never CR, calling yourself that is a disgrace to our tightly bonded community. You are simply Leanson's Boba Fett .
